It’s the last day of the year 2018 and I’ve gotta say, as much as I am looking forward to seeing what the new year brings, it feels a little bittersweet to say good-bye to this one. 2018 was a year full of challenges and victories for me. Both of these have changed and shaped me in ways I could never fully explain…where would I even begin? Reflecting back on everything that happened this year, made me realize how much my faith was tested and my strength pushed to its limit. I can honestly say that only by the grace of God did I managed to overcome it all.
The year started out with my daughter Scarlett, still in the hospital connected to a breathing machine and fighting for her life. Now she is home with us and growing every single day. What a true miracle she is.
Who would’ve thought that she would come this far in only twelve short months? Parents aren’t lying when they say their children “grow so fast”. They seriously do. I’m just so thankful I have been given the chance to enjoy every moment we’ve had with her and share it with our friends and family. It’s definitely been a dream come true.
She amazes me every single day with the things she has accomplished. It was only in March of this year that she was released from the hospital weighing a little over 8 pounds and on .3 liters of oxygen. She was on a monitor that tracked her heart rate and oxygen levels and it alerted us anytime something wasn’t within the normal range. The day we brought her home I remember being so overwhelmed with fear and happiness. Happiness because I was finally leaving that hospital with a tiny baby in my arms, but undeniably afraid that something could go wrong. Somehow, we managed. We had a lot of follow-up appoints with many different doctors so she and I technically didn’t get to come “home” until Mid-August. Instead, we stayed with my mom and I am so lucky that we did. But she was home. She was free! hahaha
It was a long, long year y’all – and it was so much fun!
We experienced a year full of firsts and they were all spent at home with family. (Except for Christmas – but I’ll tell you about that another time.)
This was an incredibly special year for us.
That’s not to say it didn’t come without its difficult times. There were plenty of those to go around. Especially with my mom, who had a tough go at it in late August when we found out she was in kidney failure. Having only had one kidney from being a previous donor (more on that later as well) she had to be put on dialysis immediately and began the process of searching for a donor. It was a tough road for her and we were all pretty terrified. It’s hard knowing that things can change for better or for worse in a heartbeat – but that’s the beauty life, I guess.
When I say that I am blessed and that this year was full of blessings – I am truly, honest to goodness NOT lying about that. I have the best friends and family any girl could ask for. Family who showed up and dropped things to offer a helping hand without hesitation. Friends who I least expected help from stepped up to the plate and helped in every way possible without ever asking for anything in return. Scarlett beat the odds and came home to us, she now weighs over 15 pounds and is without oxygen support! I had the privilege of seeing Lauren Daigle in CONCERT! My mom overcame one of the most difficult situations in life and handled it with strength and grace like I’ve never seen before. I admire her more than I can say. Together she and Scarlett are my heroes on this earth and I am so proud that I come from a family of strong beautiful women. [I guess we all know who Scarlett takes after 😉 ]
Seriously, I could go on and on and on. I feel so lucky. The gratitude I have for every single person who supported and prayed for my family this whole year is never-ending.
This was a beautiful year.
My cup is overflowing with blessings and I am so thankful for it. I know that none of it would be possible without my almighty and loving God. I am excited to see what He brings to us in the year 2019. He has used us and shaped us in ways I never saw coming. My family has all learned and grown so much in this last year that I know we are more than ready for whatever comes next. Like with every other day though, we’ll just take it ONE DAY AT A TIME. With growing strength and faithfulness in the Lord, I know we can move the next mountain.
Happy New Year everyone!
May God bless and be with you in this next season of life, and may you remember to stay faithful to him ALWAYS ❤