Mom Guilt: Comes in all Shapes & Sizes and Hits When Least Expected

There was once a time when I was in a dark place and blamed myself and my body for Scarlett being born early. I felt inadequate. Less than. Unworthy of being a mom because I couldn’t do the one thing a mother should do. Carry her child. I think as preemie moms, that guilt and … Continue reading Mom Guilt: Comes in all Shapes & Sizes and Hits When Least Expected

Tiny Warrior: A Journal For NICU Families

I did something new. As you know, if you've been around for a while, I created this blog as a means to share my daughter, Scarlett's, story. Scarlett was a micro-preemie born at 23 weeks and 6 days (you can read her story HERE), and ever since she's come home I have taken the time … Continue reading Tiny Warrior: A Journal For NICU Families

Chapter Thirteen: Moving Mountains

The day had finally come for BJ and I to "Room In" with Scarlett and I was anxious to see how it would go. This was it. The final test before going HOME. I remember talking with Perlita a few days before (the last time I would talk to her in NICU) and she offered … Continue reading Chapter Thirteen: Moving Mountains

Chapter Twelve: Someday Soon

We were a couple of weeks into March already and it felt like we were stuck in NICU limbo. Scarlett was on .3 LPM oxygen and she would not give it up. Every time they tried to wean her down even just a smidge, she would NOT have it. She was happy right where she … Continue reading Chapter Twelve: Someday Soon

Chapter Eleven: Just Keep Swimming, Just Keep Swimming…

Scarlett was doing so much better! She was on Nasal Cannula and that light at the end of the tunnel which seemed unreachable was finally coming into focus.  It was as if the dust from a sandstorm had finally settled down and we could find our way home. I remember as I was leaving Scarlett's … Continue reading Chapter Eleven: Just Keep Swimming, Just Keep Swimming…

Chapter Ten: More Than Meets the Eye

On February 9, 2018, just two and a half weeks after being on CPAP, Scarlett graduated again and was put on High Flow Nasal Cannula. It was such a relief! Not only did it mean that her lungs were growing stronger but she was also that much closer to going home. But she wasn't going … Continue reading Chapter Ten: More Than Meets the Eye